Kristen!! :D

One of my besties, Kristen got her license a few days ago :D. I was so happy for her! I feel so proud of her. She is an amazing women, but for some reason not many people can or want to see it. It makes me mad when people underestimate her ability, because I know what she is capable of. I know the great things that she can and will contribute to this chaotic world! She is like a small flame waiting to be fired up to light the darkness around. 

Someday everyone will see what an incredible person she is and they will see how much they have wronged her. I want to see all those who thought that she was nothing more then a imperfect failer to bite their tongues when they see the great things she makes happen. I want them to be green with envy knowing they could never even come close to the greatness she will be. 

I'll always be your friend Kristen. And always try my best to be there for you :D.

LOVE YOU

The Other Boy

My heart feels like a sack of bricks right now, too heavy for it's own good.

Today I was talking to this boy I had a past fling with. The fling came at a cost of practically losing one of my best friends (or what I thought was a best friend). While I was talking to him all those old feeling came rushing back and all I could think about was him. I felt bad because my current boy totally left my mind at that moment. I don't know what this means! I don't want to have feelings for the other boy! He crushed my heart and still continues to do it to this day. I feel like crying at times, because I feel so stupid for even letting him get so into my mind. 

I want nothing more then to forget any kind of feelings I ever had for the other boy, but it seems impossible. He even moved and yet it seems like he'll be in my heart and mind forever. I want to be able to focus completely on my current boy. I want to be able to look at him and not think of the other.  I want to be happy with a boy that wouldn't hurt me and actually is with me for me and not what I can give.

Oh how I hope that day comes soon!!

The Boy

I know, I know I'm writing a blog about a boy. Silly teenage girl and her childish romances :p.  But yes I will continue. As of (not sure) 2 month I've been seeing this new guy. An interesting fellow so to say. Much different then the guys I'm usually confronted with.

However this change has seemed to work quite in an odd way. He's become something he wasn't meant to, to me. I thought that maybe I'd just go out with to kill time and all this and that, but for some reason that mind set has changed. 

I could go weeks without seeing him no problem. I could not talk to him forever and no problem. But now its almost impossible. I think about him all the time. I see him all the time and it's scaring me so much. I don't want to get attached. I don't want to be let down like so many time before. I don't know what to do. I know I don't love him, but every time I'm around him I feel happy, warm, peaceful. It is just so odd. I really am so confused :p

Metro Station!

I'm sure everyone by now knows who Metro Station is and all that :p. They are hugely what I'd expect any hardcore person to call "a little gay emo band" but they have captured my heart :D. I love almost all of their songs and know must of the lyrics to them.

I don't even mind that one of the singers is sibling to that horrid creature named Miley Cyrus. God I could fling that idiotic dip-shit down a long flight of stairs. No kidding I hate her. 

But enough about that mole of a girl. This band is totally addictive. One of my friends is completely in love with them now, after I played him a few songs while on a camping trip. They are just that catchy. It's kind of scary :p. Hehehe! 

Just wanted to say that are pretty cool and worth checking out sometime :D.

Kristen's Big Day :D

One of my best friends is turning 18 in a few days and I am so excited for her! :D. She has been looking forward to this day for the longest time now. She's been planning tattoos and all those new and exciting things permitted :). I just feel so happy for.

Happy Birthday Beo! 

First Blog

I just started my blogspot, decided to give it a try and see what it was all about :).  Well at the moment I really don't have fun stuff to talk about, not much going on in my life at the moment :p.

However I am starting college this fall. I am a little sad about it though. I really wanted to go to a university, but my lazyness and lack of math skill prevented it =/. Pretty sad I guess. 

I was really looking forward to all the new things that come with it. Looking forward to living on campus and everything, but no. I am to go to a community college first then transfer.  

I do have a feeling though that this twist of events was actually better, that maybe it was meant to happen this way as to protect me from something. I don't know :p . I guess I'm just trying to make myself feel better =/.